Whoa, personal feelings
I always feel retarded on Tuesdays. And I always doubt myself and wonder how I got this far and that I won't cut it as a vet. That's very depressing. I need some real encouragement, ie from a vet. Self-doubt is THE worst. Vet school is competitive, no matter what anyone says. I feel behind and like I will never catch up. But, you know, I don't think there is anything else I can do besides vet stuff. There is nothing I am super good at. I suppose there is a lot of things I can do with a DVM besides practice. I want to be a good vet, I really do.
In other things that piss me off: very arrogant people. Above and beyond confidence. Out and out thinking they are the greatest thing on earth but actually know shit. Also, very studious students that talk to other not so studious people about not studying, or skipping lecture, or commenting on how they feel like they don't know much but IT'S A COMPLETE LIE. They study constantly and are goodie-two-shoes'. That pisses me off.
And now, for something completely different: a letter.
Dear weather,
You truly do suck. I am sick of the rain and sick of feeling wet and cold. I can deal with cold, but wet simultaneous is just too much. Please stop. I require some sun, otherwise will be forced to take action...and buy some sort of vitamin supplements. I hate you and you are ruining my fall.
Sincerely,
Me
And now, some haikus (classical 5-7-5):
from unsure fledgling
the strength to carry the world
unequivocal
bruised yet unbroken
lonely introvert in need
purple will fade grey
posted by Alice @ 11:59 PM
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1 Comments:
First off, I know you are very intelligent and a hard worker so I believe that you can master vet school. I don't want it to sound like I'm trivializing your struggle though; I've been a bit down in the academic dumps lately and your current workload is way more demanding than mine. Instead, I just wanted to try to help the confidence levels a tad.
My very first quarter at WPI, my physics prof made some special announcement how after an exam that women mostly believe they did worse than they did and then men perceive they scored better than they did and will usually express this, making the women doubt themselves even more. That definitely spoke loads to me at the time since I often think that I'm behind the rest of the class.
As part of my TA orientation for grad school a professor spoke to us about how white men participate in class more because they are more comfortable in the environment. Having personally been the only woman in a class sometimes, I could definitely relate to being uncomfortable and having lots of self doubt.
I'm not saying the gender thing is an issue for you (I really have no idea what the make up of vet school is or if that sort of thing bothers you at all) but just that self-doubt makes you uncomfortable which makes you doubt more. So hopefully you are just experiencing a severely distorted reality and you're really going to be a great vet. :o)
and don't feel like having self-doubt means that you would make a bad vet. I choose to believe it just means you're smart enough to realize you don't know everything.
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